effitup.
February 7, 2010 | 11:58 AM
曲：Beautiful World (PLANiTb Acoustica Mix) - 宇多田ヒカル
you know what, fuck it. i dont care, seriously, if what i say or how i act is going to affect anyone and everyone under the sun. that's how ive been all this while, and sometimes i realise i come out of it on the losing end. im not going to wait for anyone to realise anything, because i dont believe i deserve to wait in the first place to begin with.
and life does go on. for me, at least. people might say im unfeeling, untouched by all the emotions around me; maybe sometimes its true and sometimes it isnt. but the thing i hate about being me is that i stop myself. all the time. probably because im too weak to just stand up for what i think. im trying to change that, though.
and if i start to like someone, who should stop me except myself. and im not going to be hypocritical by erasing what i just wrote.
i do think you have an amazing smile.
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just had supper with jessnasr, and she's leaving tomorrow night. its always fun just chatting and having teh peng and prata. its a blessing to have friends beside me, actually. they keep me sane from all the turmoil inside. maybe its just an exceptionally emo day, but it was fun laughing at all the
zhng-ed cars on the road, and the guys that drive those cars.
its 3.16am and im wide awake. must be the maggie goreng coursing through my veins.
new phone, why LG i dont know. but its kind of pretty.
and im back to one-liners again. time to collect laundry.
velda.
